I just don’t know what to do at this point. I hate being a heart breaker, but this came about from being a dumb ass in the relationship before the last…here’s mine.
There was an mmo I played nearly 2 years ago. I used to play a lot, so I bonded with a number of people online. There was one in particular that I talked to regularly. He was nice, and has problems with an ex. She basically treated him like shit. And that made him very depressed and even more. Anyway, to keep this part short, we ended up moving a step higher in-game and began “dating.” We both lived in different states at the time. He planned on coming down to Florida to see me. The distance between us was bad. We talked on msn and even did video chat sessions but that wasn’t enough for me…so about a year into it, and finally calming down from the mmo addiction, I decided to check back on myspace to reconnect with some people and add em on my facebook page (this was in 2010 if I remember correctly.) Out of 20 people, 2 replied; an old friend and some fucking drop out loser from highschool. We started talking (as friends) on facebook and come to found out he lived like 2 minutes away from me and more. So after spending a few times together, talking and what have you, he started to send flirt messages on my facebook. And I responded to them. Not in a big way, but I guess enough to make my mmo bf angry and break up with me. Guess I deserved it, I did started to lose interest in him. So I started to date the drop out guy…and found out quickly that we didn’t really have a lot in common. He smokes weed, always puts his loser friends before me, called me names during the time that I tried breaking up with him, doesn’t keep his house clean, was rude to me and my mother and so much more…I tried making it work, I truly and honestly did! For one whole year, staying by a dirty, jobless slob. One that told me to get out of his house after I cleaned it up for him with my mother and come back 5 days later to find it smelling it dirty again and just disgusting crap everywhere. Sorry for making this so long, but honest to god, if that was my karma for messing up with that nice guy I met online, then damn that was a good one for me! Really, I don’t ever want to go through that again…
That’s not the end though. Every time I tried breaking it up, he would chase after me in texts, calls and even drove by my house. It is INSANE. AND he only did it when I call it quits or don’t call/text him.
A few months ago I made an account on okcupid. I barely used it. A guy (which I will not name) messaged me, and since I was very busy working on my artwork and comics, I tell him to just text me. We texted. Texts turned to phone calls (because I told him that I thought it was going anywhere) but wow, I am so thankful for being a hot head at that moment. The phone conversation that night lasted for 4 hours! We have so much in common! It was so refreshing to talk to someone with the same interests as me. And what was the kicker - he and I had developed a insane attraction to one another in a few days. We went on a date and it was fantastic! We talked and I mean, talked about deep and touching topics. I tell you one thing; if this doesn’t work, I truly wouldn’t mind. This person is amazing, and would def. keep as a friend. And so straight forward and more…completely different from my now permanent ex boyfriend. He did and said things that hurt me. Never was there, always had an excuse for not keeping a job….but now I feel bad, in fact guilty. Will karma kill me again? Did I truly did the right thing? I honestly going to say I did…how about you guys?