Ok so I have this friend, infact shes my best friend. We dont live in the same city, but we do keep visiting eachother from time to time, we are less than 2 hours apart. We go out of our way when one visits, we are always in touch. We talk about everything.

The weird thing is that to everyone else, we seem like a couple. We are always in touch, cant be apart for too long, don’t hide stuff from each other, always nice to each other, etc etc.

After a recent visit, i felt something, and it felt good. Kept it inside for a while, it didnt go away. Was afraid that talking to her about it cuz i felt that might make things awkward between us. (have to mention that she is 5 years older than i am) I kept testing the waters, being extra nice and extra flirty, and she did respond positively to it. Just as I was building up the confidence to confront her, she changed, and seemed to be ignoring me. I figured it was her way to say that she wasn’t interested or didn’t want it. So I decided to confront her anyway, for the sake of getting over with it and moving on.

So i confess to her, she says she felt it and was just being nice to me sometimes and hoped that i would “get it.” She said it would never work out and our relationship as friends was better than moving ahead with this. I agreed, it sucked, but i knew it was for the best.

I was heartbroken, but she was happy that it was out and we are moving along, so i tried to be normal again. A few days later she starts being all nice again, she keeps reminding me of some good times we had, esp from the trip i took when all the feelings came to me. She knows how strongly i felt about her. Why would she do this if she didn’t want it?

I wanted to back off for a while and move on, we will always have what we have, thats how strong it is, but with her doing it to me again, i keep thinking that she is making her move, but she had strong thoughts about us not moving forward, why would she do this, esp that it has only been a week since we talked about this.

I don’t know what to do, I wanted move on, but there is a part of me that is curious and wants this to work out.