I think it should because this vent is going to start a change in my lifestyle. Sorry if it is not really coherent, it’s just going to be a rant, copied verbatim from my Moleskine.

I’m tired of it. Tired of ALL of it, but without really knowing what exactly it is I’m tired of.

I’m tired of school, but honestly, who isn’t?

I’m tired of keeping to myself. That’s what it is. I’m absolutely tired of just sitting back and watching life pass me by. I’m SICK of not sticking up for myself and what I believe in unless it is in a passive aggressive way. I’m tired of not making decisions. I’m so DAMN indecisive when it comes down to it. It doesn’t even matter what it’s about. I’m sick and fucking tires of caring what other people will think. If I want to complain, I’m going to do it now. Who cares if I sound pathetic and whiny? Everyone else does it. Why the FUCK can’t I?

I’m tired of never getting what I want.

I’m tired of settling.

I’m tired of people.

I’m tired of people being so closed minded.

I’m appalled by the fact that we do not have gay marriage and that people are still voting it down.

I’m sick of trying to be so fucking perfect all the goddamn time.

I hate the fact that my roommate leaves the cabinet doors open.

I’m sick of not having money.

I’m fucking tired of not being able to see the people I want to see.

I’m tired of drama.

I’m tired of feeling like I have to keep my opinions to myself.

I’m tired of being so goddamn shy.

I’m tired of religion fanatics.

I’m sick of the fact that I feel incapable of delivering a speech.

I’m tired of feeling inadequate.

I’m tired of Kentucky.

I’m sick of holding it all in.

I WANT TO SCREAM.

I’m tired of trying to hide my flaws.

I’m tired of trying to hide my feelings. I’m a sentimental, sappy mess sometimes and I need to let it out.

Oh lord, this could go on for pages. I’m going to stop complaining now and start changing.