HERE I AM ALONE…
(1,116 views)I am Ben, I am 29 and never had a real relationship with anyone… my longest one was 3 months and that was suppose to have been a one night stand, and she turned out a little to crazy for me to handle. I am to the point where i just want to die, i don’t care about a fucking thing anymore,if the world ended tomarrow by nuclear stike i would care less, i have tried singles web sites and even those pathertic religious one that you have to pay for, and here i am alone and with less money than i had before, no matches, nothing even close.. i was talking to a chick for about a week and we hit it off really good she had a mouth as bad as mine and best part was she could stand me, but here i am again ALONE, and you know why here are her words and i quote” i just found out that a guy i have had feelings for , for a very long time is single again” WTF… you know how many times i have heard that BULLSHIT before???? I mean for real you should just go ahead and come over and pull the fucking trigger for me… it is the same old story time after time, week after week.. then i will get tired of looking and quit, then i get depressed because HERE I AM ALONE AGAIN, I have tried and fucking tried to not be mean to care for everyone but living here in this shit hole texas, being stuck here has blackened my heart with all these stupid fucking whores ways and all the god damn hateful people, i am becoming more and more like them and it makes me sick, i just want to be happy again, find someone to spend my pathetic existance with, or fucking die and let it all be done with,i am so fucking good at acting like everything don’t bother me my own family doesnt know exactly how seriously i HATE all life, espesially my own. i sit here at home and play my games fuck off on the computer, and drink, (yes i fucking drink alone).. and not beer either i am no lightweight, i go for the whiskey, and hope i drink so much that when i pass out and fall asleep finally i do not ever wake up, but it is never enough all that happens is i wake up with heartburn, well if i make it thru another night i guess i will respond to your bullshit responses, if not then i will finally be free of this fucked up planet and all the people in it, Later Mr. Grimm
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sage says:
Put the beer down it will only make you more depressed. Try not being so reckless with your language. Girls think frequent cuss words mean you need to increase your vocabulary and after awhile it becomes scary. Anger is Fear. Join your local church group. There are nice girls there but you have to be a nice guy yourself. Get a dog and walk it in the park. Pick up items in the grocery and ask the ladies for their advice. Take a dancing class. When you are confident in yourself they will sense it and all will be right with the world. I hope you have a wonderful journey!
kolobus says:
look i apriciate the input but the chick i am refering to cursed more than me, so before you try to analize my problem ask me what type of chick i am attracted to…and i dont drink beer just whiskey.. i am no light weight..and fuck church fuck your god, god is a weak minded persons reasoning for what comes after death so they dont have to be scared… now dont think i am mad at you or hate you i hate everyone equaly.. so no worries..
Doruntrus says:
I know what you are saying. Life fucking sucks when you have to go at it alone. Why is it so damn hard to just find a girl that likes to spend time with you? I don’t know how many times I’ve gotten the same fucking ‘I think of you as a friend’ speech. Life is just the same bullshit, day in and day out. Fuck!!! I just want to yell and break shit. Nobody I know could even guess how fucked up everything is for me. How can you explain this shit to somebody that doesn’t have to go through it every day?
kolobus says:
yea doru i know…good news is it is just mainly the chicks in america that think like that, soon as i get the money i am gonna fine me a nice dry desert in a 3rd or 2nd world country and find me a chick that actually has morals and goals, that wants a real man not some pathetic underwear model thats gonna go pop some pills and come home and beat the crap out of her. i love technology but i would give it all up just to find a female that could stay for the long hual…
Charlene84 says:
Hey, there are some good woman out there. There are woman out there that have morals and goals. I am 24 and at one point I thought I had everything figured out until about 2 weeks ago. I got married when I was 20, I have three kids, and I thought I was with the person I was going to spend the rest of my life with. He is the only man I have ever been with and I was completely fine with that because I love him. Well 2 two weeks ago he decides to tell me he realizes he doesn’t love me anymore and it is over. No counseling, no nothing, just hey I don’t want to waste anymore of your time. I am at my lowest point. I am completely heart broken. However, I have to push forward and so do you. I realize you can’t rely on someone to make you happy. I know it is stupid, but make yourself happy don’t worry about these people that like to play games. There are real woman out there willing to do anything for the person they love, you just have to wait and see when it happens for you. Just keep your head up, I am trying to do the same. Oh and by the way, a real woman doesn’t want the fake model.I know personally I like a man I can joke with and be honest with. But that also makes me feel protected and secure.
kolobus says:
damn sorry about you luck there Charlene, but if you have read any of my other post’s or replies you will notice that getting married young is pretty stupid to me, but that loser should have the nuts at least to go to some counseling or something, but i also understand the other side of it also my uncle has been married to my aunt forever and he should have kicked her ass to the curb a long time ago, she dont work or anything she don’t fuck him anymore his daughter don’t even like him and she was the only reason he hasn’t divorced her in the first place, and now he is worried about her getting our families land, which i dont think she should even have her name on in the first place she aint never worked and he has supported her fat nasty lazy ass for far to long.. anyways i think i might write a post about this cause this reply is just way to long..lol anyways later and hope the next guys is your ONE
later Grimm